Kevin spent seven years inside the most secretive Catholic organisation in living memory - The Legionaries of Christ. He thought he was going to spread love and compassion: he ended up among disinformation and lies. He fled to save his sanity. This is the story of how he found, and then lost, his religion, and how he lost, and then found, his sexuality. On the way, the young teenager clings to what his mother has taught him: to be a good boy. The journey brings him face to face with difficult truths, and ultimately to a far deeper knowledge of himself, as he finds out who he doesn't want to be. It's a story full of hope about discovering what matters to each of us, even if we don't like some of what we find.