In this collective work the author takes you on a hunt throughout their life, with 23 english and 6 german poems- including the first that combines both -to try and find what they've lost during childhood trauma, together;No matter if they have to trek through shimmering waves, thick foliage slowly decaying in autumn or crash though the morning clouds, they've faced it all to try and clasp their hands around it.They'll do their best to show you how their passion for art brought them back to life after not being able to hear hope for so long;Perhaps, you too find solace within this bloody poetry. They did.