When Abigail wed Simeon, she believed she had a fresh start. to develop as a person. to forgive her past transgressions. the transgressions that Simeon is unaware of. She is aware that her faults are catching up with her and harming Simeon as well, though, as a result of a string of tragic losses. If he finds out the truth right now, he'll expel her. the same as her family did. She should have pushed him away first.