This is my fourth autobiography, just was not ready to say my other books were. The book is set in the town of Bristol, mostly in and around the fishponds area. This book is about my on going battle with severe depression and why I have had this crippling illness; in the hope of raising awareness of depression and after affects of abuse, mental, physical, sexual from the living and non living and other traumatic events so therefore creates a level of understanding, lift that stigma. I hope by me being so frank I can help others to speak out about their mental health or and abuse. How it can influence badly and impact on your life horrifically including those around you. It has taken me 30 years to admit it and a lot of courage. Depression is a illness like any other but not the same level of understanding or support. I included what it feels like to be different and why with my experiences with paranormal, past life and a gift, which gave me a insight to life.