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Bewertung vom 05.02.2021
Whisper Island (eBook, ePUB)
Lynch, Carissa Ann

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Riley, Sammy, Mia and Scarlett are art students at Monroe and working on projects together when one day, Sammy suggests a trip to Whisper Island, Alaska, where they could spend their holidays for free and profit from its remoteness and special surroundings for their artwork. Even though the others are not too keen on spending summer in the cold north, they agree and see it as an adventure. When they are on their way, Sammy announces that her brother Rob would join them, not just does she thus destroy the girls trip, but especially Mia is angry, her best friend should know that after their breakup, the wounds that Rob had caused never really healed. When they finally arrive, it is not just Rob but also his new girlfriend Opal awaiting them in a run-down house. But not only their lodging is a disappointment, also their boat to travel to the next town is out of order and then their whole trip turns into a nightmare when they realise that they are obviously not alone on the island since a murderer is on the loose killing one after the other.

Carissa Ann Lynch has chosen a classic locked-room setting which strongly reminded me of Agatha Christie’s “And Then There Were None”. Even though the students are not total strangers, they evidently know much less from each other than they thought before their departure. The story is narrated alternatingly from the points of view of the characters thus providing insight in their hidden thoughts and offering the reader, on the hand, clues to what could be behind all this murdering but, on the other hand, also a lot of red herrings which keeps suspense high.

The present events on the island are surely the main focus of the plot, however, the girls’ past, the things they hide from the others – and astonishingly, each of them has quite a story to offer – are much more interesting to unravel. Sammy soon hints at the fact that she did not suggest the trip out of the blue but actually had a good reason to vanish from Memphis and so had her brother. Mia seems to have been in a scandal a couple of years ago which she hopes the others have never heard of but of which the anniversary is close and threatening to make the others a see side of her she prefers to keep hidden. Scarlett struggles with drug abuse and hopes to get sober in the weeks on the island. Riley is new to the group and she is also the one who is quite closed up not giving away too much form herself and her family, so, what does she have to hide?

I liked the atmosphere on the hardly welcoming island which immediately gives you the creeps and fits perfectly to the plot. Speculating about why the six might have been chosen as targets was great fun and finally was revealed and explained. An entertaining and fast-paced mystery following a classic structure.

Bewertung vom 04.02.2021
Ten Days
Duffy, Austin

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When his wife Miriam days from cancer, Wolf has to take care of their 16-year-old daughter Ruth whom he hardly knows since the couple has been separated for quite some time. Miriam had one last wish: to have her ashes scattered in the Hudson River. Thus, Wolf and Ruth leave London for New York where he also hopes his daughter can find a new home with his former wife’s Jewish family. They arrive at the holy season between Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur; Wolf has never really been religious and also their daughter has not been raised to follow religious traditions. Yet, with Miriam’s believing relatives, conflicts lie at hand. They only seem to have one mission, yet, there is something else the father has to announce to his daughter.

Austin Duffy’s novel “Ten Days” tells the story of people who have to cope with the loss of a beloved mother and wife. Even though they have not been living as a couple anymore, Wolf’s memories come back when he shows Ruth where they met, where their first kiss took place and where everything began. It seems to be quite difficult for him to deal with his intelligent and at times rebellious teenage daughter, however, the more the narration advances the more questions arise about Wolf’s behaviour which becomes not only quarrelsome but strange.

I totally enjoyed the novel since the characters are lively drawn and really appear to be authentic in the way they try to make sense of Miriam’s death. Ruth is quite independent and strong-willed, when Wolf’s secret is revealed, however, we also get to know another side of her character.

Not a totally emotional read, much more a slow novel which makes you ponder.

Bewertung vom 03.02.2021
My Brother
Smirnoff, Karin

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After years away, Jana returns to the Swedish village she grew up in. There is only her twin brother Bror left of her family. But as soon as she arrives, all the memories of her childhood come back. Her father, a brutal alcoholic who used to beat their mother and the kids, the mother who only ever told them to pray but never stepped in against the violence the kids had to endure. All those things Jana wanted to forget resurface, but there are also other things she wants to know after all this time: where is her daughter and who was Maria?

“I always assumed that something was wrong with me. The classic therapy answer was that I ended up in the same situation again and again in order to relive my childhood. “

Karin Smirnoff‘s novel lives on a very gloomy atmosphere. A snowstorm sets the mood on the very first page. Just as the fierce and merciless nature, the people also treat each other without too much softness in this remote area in the north. It is a story of violence and abuse, of adults looking away, not protecting children and a community which prefers to remain silent over stepping in. The result are scars on the outside and inside and two childish souls marked forever.

“All one can do is pray she said. And how we prayed. Childish prayers for help. “

Jana and Bror’s childhood is the most horrible story to imagine. Afraid of the father, every week hoping that he might die before returning to their home on Friday evening when he used to first drink and then hit whoever got in his way. The mother weak on the one hand, herself victim of constant beating, maybe having given up the hope for a better life, on the other hand, ignoring what her husband does to the kids. Surely not a novel easy to read. Bror’s addiction and Jana‘s tendency to end up with men who show similar patterns like her father are the logic consequence.

Yet, there is more than the inner circle of the family, the whole village is full of secrets, things which are common knowledge but never told which Jana, now a grown-up and strong woman, uncovers.

To call the novel an enjoyable read would be totally inadequate, there is nothing to enjoy when reading about child abuse and domestic violence. However, the characters are authentically drawn and the dynamics within the village are interesting to observe.

Bewertung vom 02.02.2021
The Project
Summers, Courtney

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Lo Denham has lost her parents in a car accident in which she herself was also seriously injured and which marked her with a scar for life. Her sister Bea, six years her senior, is the last bit of family she has, but she has not been able to contact her for months. It must be The Unity Project’s fault, the sect Bea joined when she couldn’t make sense of the loss she experienced anymore. When a man claims that The Unity Project killed his son, Lo decides to take a closer look and to get nearer to the charismatic leader Lev Warren with the aim to expose the group’s doings in the magazine she works for. However, Lo is not prepared for the experiences she makes there.

Courtney Summers narrates the story from different points of view at different points in time, thus we get both sisters’ perspective on the highly emotional events in their lives. This also creates a lot of suspense since from the beginning, there are gaps which need to be filled to make sense. It also underlines the different characters of Lo and Bea which, nevertheless, does not hinder them from being fascinated by the same man.

The crucial point is most definitely the psychological impact a major tragic event such as the loss of the parents can have on young persons. Coming to grips with such a stroke of fate which does not make sense and is hard to understand is not only very hard but also makes people fragile and prone to others who are eager to exploit their situation. The leader of the group is surely an interesting character, it is easy to see how he manages to win people for his project and how he can make them follow him blindly. In this way, the novel also cleverly portrays the mechanism which work behind sects and which make it difficult to immediately see through them and more importantly to leave them.

I thoroughly enjoyed the novel due to the multifaceted characters and the message beyond the suspenseful and entertaining plot.

Bewertung vom 02.02.2021
Untraceable
Lebedev, Sergei

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For many years, Kalitin has lived alone on the hill, in the house at the end of the road, isolated from his neighbours. He kept for himself, guarded the secrets of his former life, knowing that one day, they would catch up with him. Now, with the cancer in his body, there is not much time left anyway. His enemies are already on their way, two men, the ordinary set-up, to find and kill him. Agents who turn into angels of death because Kalitin not only knows too much, but because he was the man to develop Neophyte, a highly lethal substance which leaves no trace when applied, perfect to get rid of obnoxious people who know too much or who have fled the secure boundaries of their former home country. Such a behaviour against the code of honour is something Shershnev cannot accept. He has always been hard, hard against himself, hard against his son, hard against everybody. Two men who after a long life in the service of a country which does not exist anymore, have to fight their last battle.

“Kalitin knew that his inventions did not simply create specific weapons of death poured into ampoules. He also produced fear.”

Sergei Lebedev’s novel tells the story of two men who have seen everything in life and for whom life and death have been just states which a person can be in but nothing spiritual. Now, close to the end of their lives, they not only look back but also start to question what they have seen and done. “Untraceable” also tells the story of a lethal weapon we have heard of in the news more than once in the last couple of years. The time of shooting double agents, dissidents, whistle blowers and the like are gone, the strategies and means have become much more sophisticated, but one thing has remained the same: the human factor.

“In that world, most people did not yet see the dark side of science, its evil twin.”

For Kalitin, science, the discoveries and expansion of his knowledge about how nature works have always been paramount. However, he has come to understand that the leaders of the URRS for whom he worked had a different understanding and that, first and foremost, the individual scientist wasn’t worth much. He was only an obedient soldier on duty for the state. Surely, they gave him the opportunity to work in his lab, but at the end of his life, he also sees the price this came with and he can see the bigger picture. He wasn’t interested in politics, he has always seen himself just as a scientist, but eventually, he has to acknowledge that it isn’t so simple and that he cannot put the blame only on the others.

Shershnev, too, ruminates about his life which he has fully dedicated to the long gone state. He is one of the last still on duty who have lived in the USSR and who still, after all those decades, adheres to the old values. He has to admit having made mistakes. Big mistakes which haunt him now. Yet, he follows the assigned mission stubbornly, too weak to make a courageous decision himself.

The beginning was a bit slow, I didn’t get the connection between the different characters and chapter immediately. However, as soon as the main conflict was laid out, the novel was not only suspenseful but also morally challenging since it raises the big issue of science and the responsibility of the scientists. Additionally, it is no question that the former USSR was a rogue regime, yet, no system is flawless and to what extent each civil servant, soldier or simple citizen complies with given values and rules has to be answered individually.

A thrilling political thriller which also offers a lot of food for thought.

Bewertung vom 28.01.2021
Who Is Vera Kelly?
Knecht, Rosalie

Who Is Vera Kelly?


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After a turbulent youth, the break-up with her mom, some time in a detention centre and no plan what to do with her life, Vera ends up in New York, trying this job and that job. One day, she is addressed by a man who noticed her quick wits and technical understanding. He is a recruiter for the CIA and thus, a couple of years later, Vera finds herself in Buenos Aires with the fake ID of a Canadian student named Anne. Her mission: spy on a group of students who the CIA believes to work for the KGB in order to ally Argentina with the Soviet Union. Vera/Anne makes befriends Ramón and Victoria who have radicalised and are disappointed by how the country is governed. Yet, then suddenly, the military ventures a coup d’état and General Onganía’s men take over. Vera/Anne is stuck, foreigners are not allowed to travel anymore, her local contact betrayed her and she gets the runaround by her superior within the CIA. Either she acts for herself, or she is lost.

“Who Is Vera Kelly?” is not an easy to classify novel. It is a kind of bildungsroman, we get to know young Vera who protests against her mother and school and has to grow up the hard way. A young woman who is looking for her place in life and oscillates between different options without a clear aim. On the other hand, the novel is a political or spy crime novel since we have Vera/Anne prying on rebellious students to uncover any KGB involvement in Argentina and also the time after the Revolución which brings the military dictatorship and severe restrictions for the people.

At both times of her life, Vera is lonely, her affection for her school friend is not returned and also when she arrives in New York does she not find a person to really bond with. This qualifies for a lone spy job abroad where she is left to her own devices and cannot really build deep friendships. The experiences she made as a teenager, especially with her mother who kicked her out into the detention centre and did not show any interest in her, gave her quite a good education for her mission.

Vera is not a classic heroine, she is no James Bond and does not compare to any other dazzling movie character. She is actually the perfect spy, she blends in smoothly, goes unnoticed and her technical skills allow her even without any sophisticated equipment to get the information she needs. When she finds herself deserted of all contacts and help, she is close to breaking down but then shows her real strength. She just goes on and finds a solution to escape.

A perfect blend of a young woman who is far ahead of her time in terms of emancipation and going her own way and a world in political turmoil. The plot becomes increasingly suspenseful and thus is a real page-turner.

Bewertung vom 26.01.2021
Eine Formalie in Kiew
Kapitelman, Dmitrij

Eine Formalie in Kiew


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Nach 25 Jahren in Deutschland und der Beobachtung der unsäglichen politischen Entwicklungen insbesondere im Osten beschließt der Autor sich nun endlich um die Staatsbürgerschaft des Landes zu bemühen, in dem er aufgewachsen ist und sich zu Hause fühlt. Mit der Ukraine verbindet ihn nicht mehr viel, dennoch muss er nach Kiew reisen, um dort eine neue Geburtsurkunde und eine Apostille zu besorgen. Schon seit vielen Jahren war er nicht mehr dort, manche Straßenzüge gleichen noch jenen seiner Kindheitserinnerungen, andere sind nicht wiederzuerkennen. Er sucht die alte Wohnung seiner Familie auf, in der tatsächlich im Kinderzimmer noch immer derselbe Teppichboden liegt. Auch alte Freunde und Verwandte trifft er wieder, immer auch mit der Sprache kämpfend, die ihm fremd geworden ist. Wundersamerweise sind seine Dokumente zügig fertig und er will schon die Rückreise antreten, doch dann kündigt sein Vater sein Kommen an und macht dabei einen völlig verwirrten Eindruck. Dies bestätigt sich rasch: offenbar die Folgen eines Schlaganfalls, also muss er sich erst einmal um die Gesundheit des alten Mannes kümmern.

Kapitelmans Reise nach Deutschland beginnt wie viele in den 1990er Jahren. Als jüdische Kontingentflüchtlinge konnte die Familie in den Westen kommen, wo sich jedoch die Hoffnungen und Erwartungen nur bedingt erfüllten. Bald schon verklären die Eltern die alte Heimat, was zu einem unweigerlichen Bruch zwischen den Generationen führt: die Kinder finden sich zügig ein, leben unauffällig wie ihre deutschen Freunde, doch die Eltern bleiben immer ein Stück weit noch in der Vergangenheit verhaftet. Die Reise in das Geburtsland wird dann zu einer Entdeckungsreise in die Fremde, nicht nur Sprache fehlt, sondern auch die Gepflogenheiten müssen die Kinder sich mühsam aneignen. Kapitelman schildert dieses Erlebnis mit einem lockeren Ton, der von feiner Ironie geprägt ist, die jedoch die Zwischentöne nicht verdeckt, sondern eher noch schärft.

Zunächst dominiert der Behördenirrsinn, der als Ausgangspunkt für die Handlung dient. Sowohl auf deutscher wie auch auf ukrainischer Seite verwundert so manche Paragrafenabsurdität, hierzulande geprägt von rigider Formalität, dort von „Entdankungen“, der zufälligen Beigabe von kleinen und größeren Geldgeschenken, die Vorgänge nicht nur beschleunigen, sondern überhaupt erst ermöglichen. Die Entfremdung von der Heimat, der Verlust der Sprache – wobei dies in einem zweisprachigen Land, das sich auch noch im Krieg befindet und wo die Verwendung der „falschen“ mit nicht wenigen Vorbehalte einhergeht – die unterschiedlichen Lebensbedingungen und Lebensentwürfe: Kapitelmans schildert seine Eindrücke und Begegnungen authentisch und lebhaft und lässt den Leser an seinen Gedanken teilhaben.

Mit dem Erscheinen des Vaters verschiebt sich der Schwerpunkt, weniger die Begegnung mit dem Fremden steht im Vordergrund als viel mehr der schwierige Umgang mit dem Vater, der nicht mehr der Mann ist, den er kannte. Einfachste Fragen werden zu großen Hürden, die Hände und Füße wollen nicht mehr wie gewohnt gehorchen und die bittere Wahrheit kann kaum mehr verleugnet werden. Der Autor muss nicht nur seine Geburtsstadt neu kennenlernen, sondern auch seine Eltern, denn diese sind ebenso nicht mehr diejenigen, die sie einmal waren.

Auch wenn viele Themen eher trauriger Natur sind und nachdenklich stimmen, lebt der Roman doch von einem heiteren Ton, der insbesondere die alltäglichen Absurditäten pointiert wiedergibt. Immer wieder muss man schmunzeln, obwohl die Lage eigentlich ernst ist. Dmitrij Kapitelman gelingt so eine Liebeserklärung an Kiew und seine Bewohner und eine unterhaltsame literarische Spurensuche nach seinen Wurzeln, die er schon vertrocknet glaubte und die ihn unerwartet seinen Eltern wieder ganz nahe bringt.

Bewertung vom 25.01.2021
Das achte Kind
Grabovac, Alem

Das achte Kind


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Ihre Kindheit in dem kroatischen Dorf war von Entbehrung geprägt, nur einen einzigen Raum hatte die Familie und oft nicht genug, um zu Essen. Smilja hat sich geschworen, jede sich bietende Chance zu nutzen, um den Elend zu entfliehen und kommt so als junge Frau als Gastarbeiterin einer Schokoladenfabrik nach Deutschland. Ihr Mann Emir ist launisch und faul und ein Ganove dazu, als sie schwanger wird, ist ihr klar, dass sie sich alleine um das Kind wird kümmern müssen, was nur schwer mit der Arbeit vereinbar sein würde. Eine Kollegin erzählt ihr von dem Arrangement für ihre Tochter: unter der Woche wächst das Kind bei Marianne und Robert auf, am Wochenende ist sie bei ihr. So kommt Alem schon nach sechs Wochen in eine deutsche Pflegefamilie, die so ganz anders ist als seine eigene. Nach dem plötzlichen Verschwinden Emirs findet die Mutter einen neuen Freund, der jedoch gewalttätig und permanent besoffen ist und mit dem sie in Frankfurt in prekären Verhältnissen haust. Alem dagegen ist in der deutschen Großfamilie als achtes Kind aufgenommen worden und erlebt die typische deutsche Kleinstadt Kindheit der 70er und 80er Jahre. Beide Leben sind unvereinbar, aber gleichermaßen Bestandteil seines Alltags.

Alem Grabovacs Roman kommt als Fiktion daher, erzählt allerdings seine eigene Lebensgeschichte, die jedoch alles andere als die typische Migrationsgeschichte ist. Er ist in beiden Kulturen aufgewachsen, hat Ausländerfeindlichkeit erlebt und ebenso das kleinbürgerliche Leben der schwäbischen Provinz – inklusive Holocaust-Verleugnung und heimlicher Nazi Verehrung. Kaum jemand wird so tiefen Einblick in die Lebenssituationen haben wie er; Leben, die im selben Land stattfinden, aber genauso gut auf unterschiedlichen Planeten angesiedelt sein könnten.

Interessant ist zunächst Smilja, deren Kindheit in den 50er Jahren wenig Anlass zur Freude bietet, sie aber zu einer entschlossenen und durchaus mutigen Frau macht. Alleine ins Ausland zu gehen, um das Glück zu suchen, erfordert Mut, doch bei der Wahl ihrer Männer hat sie kein Händchen. Sie wird benutzt, beraubt, verprügelt und kann sich selbst jedoch aus dem Elend nicht befreien. Allerdings ist sie bezogen auf ihren Sohn bedingungslos und stellt ihre Gefühle hinten an, um ihm eine bessere Zukunft zu ermöglichen. Diese bieten die Pflegeeltern, Alem mangelt es an nichts, auch die Zuneigung ist durchaus jene, die auch die leiblichen Kinder erfahren. Knackpunkt jedoch ist die Auseinandersetzung mit der deutschen Geschichte und der eigenen Vergangenheit. Roberts eindeutig rechte politische Gesinnung war sicherlich zu jener Zeit kein Einzelfall und hinter verschlossenen Türen – wie auch hier – wurde so manche nicht-salonfähige Parole geäußert.

Mit Ausbruch des Jugoslawienkriegs wird die Frage nach der kulturellen Zugehörigkeit nochmals komplizierter. Kroatische Mutter, bosnischer Vater, aufgewachsen in einer deutschen Familie. An Grabovacs vielseitigen Familienangehörigen, inklusive angeheiratetem mexikanisch-amerikanischen Soldaten, zeigt sich, dass dieses Konzept vielleicht auch schlicht überholt ist und schon lange nicht mehr zu einer mobilen Welt mit Migration in allerlei Richtungen und Familiengründungen in allen Farben und Formen mehr passt. Begriffe wie Heimat werden so flexibel, ergänzt um Wahlheimaten und mehr an Personen denn an Örtlichkeiten festgemacht. Ebenso lassen sich Neuankömmlinge nicht mehr

Facettenreich und mit viel Wiedererkennungswert, wenn man die Kindheit zur gleichen Zeit erlebte und dennoch öffnet der Autor auch Türen zu einer anderen Welt. Erzählerisch unterhaltsam und zugleich zum Denken anregend – vielleicht hilft der Blick zurück in die Vergangenheit, um in der Zukunft etwas anders zu machen, um das Nebeneinander etwas mehr Miteinander werden zu lassen.