"No, thank you, I am fine. I can take care of myself." She nodded her head and exited the room. The truth is, I do not need anyone judging me for what I went through. To have someone know everything that Kieran did to me. Just so they can say that it will get better in time and that I will find someone who will treat me right. Kieran might have abused me, but he might be the only one I will ever love. When I met him, I thought he would be the person I would spend the rest of my life with, thinking I had the love that my parents have because that's all I ever wanted. I got so mad at God when the abuse started that I stopped believing in everything. It felt like my soul is shattered into a million pieces. I don't understand why me being abused by someone I love is a part of his plan. Sometimes I feel like it would have been easier if I knew what his plan was for me.